Hi Zeena, thanks for sharing this as I unfortunatley know all too well how hard much of this is, not to mention how brave it is to put all this out into the world. I lost my mom (she was 60 and I was 28) after her 4 month battle with pancreatic cancer where I was one of her primary caregivers. You touched on so many of those external and internal tensions, thank you for sharing your journey and lessons.